Shadows of pitch black surrounds me as I follow him who is in front of me. With a gold sash around him as his white robe glowed, I followed him. I had no idea where we were going. I had no idea what tomorrow would bring. I was broken. My life broke and then finally I broke myself. I shattered to pieces and here I was, whole whenever I was with and near him. His name is Jesus. This is the first time I’ve trusted him for so long. I don’t know where he’s taking me and what his purpose is for my life, but I trust him. Trusting Jesus is a bit difficult at first. It can be uncomfortable and a change of environment. But once you’re set on a strong foundation, you know who you are and who to trust and what to do. He is and will be forever given the glory.
I awoke in a place where clouds were everywhere. I could see tall gates open and a bright beautiful gold light shone through.I stood there amazed at how beautiful this light was. It was so beautiful that I could feel the warmth from the very far distance I was standing. In a blink of an eye, this warmth of light engulfed and embraced me. I couldn’t understand what was happening. I didn’t even think. Suddenly, I saw words starting to appear. Agape Love, Beautiful, Warmth, Joy, Peace, Understanding. Suddenly I could hear whispers echoing around me. “I love you”. I couldn’t keep the tears away from my eyes.
Tears of pain splashed in the presence of this light but it dissappeared. Hurt felt in my heart was gripping onto me tightly. But he said to me “Let it go”. I couldn’t understand what was happening. It felt like love was wrapped around me. Assuring me that everything will be okay. I looked up and said to him, I will trust you the best I can. But after awhile I walked away. Thats when he took me by the hand and he said to me “I will carry you. I love you”.